As a 51-year-old mother of two. I work full-time as a Charge Nurse. I have recently discovered a whole new world of education.
I have long wanted to take courses that would improve my knowledge base. However, the cost and time has made this an impossibility for me. Both of my children are in college, and I am the sole breadwinner in our household.
It is sad to realize that the cost of education has increased over 500 percent. Though the ability to find a job after college has decreased.
For me the ability to obtain free college knowledge is an awesome prospect. I look forward to taking my first class.
Stories and information about brain and spinal cord injury. We are all exposed to stories every day that no one ever thinks up. Snippets of my life and what ever is on my mind. Please feel free to post any questions if you have a brain or spinal cord injury I will try and respond weekly. I have 20 years of experience as a Neurosurgery Nurse. I am not a doctor, so I can offer support and help, but you need to contact your physician for his or her medical opinion.
Friday, March 15, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Saturday, March 2, 2013
What is the deal with all the crazy people?
Everyday I go into work and I am amazed at how many wonderful people I meet. Patients who are threatened by life choices. Families who's lives are changed by the diseases that are encountered.
On the other side there are people who come in, fake seizures, drug seekers, people who simply cannot make there way in a normal life. People whose sense of logic and common sense are driven by the need to smoke, take drugs and create unrelenting havoc on the people who are around them and who are trying to help them, honestly I simply do not understand!
On the other side there are people who come in, fake seizures, drug seekers, people who simply cannot make there way in a normal life. People whose sense of logic and common sense are driven by the need to smoke, take drugs and create unrelenting havoc on the people who are around them and who are trying to help them, honestly I simply do not understand!
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Diary Blog look back on my life and divorce..
It is amazing where life leads you. I am 50 this year. I thought I would be at some other place in my life by now. Instead, this year has brought me to bankruptcy. My ex-husband told my children he was moving out of the country, which I do not believe that he did, but he did manage to not pay child support for the past three years. He does manage to show up a few times a year to see them, not me, he knows how I feel about him. After we divorced, I found out he had been having an affair. The woman he had been with called me and talked to me on mothers day one year. She told me how guilty she had felt and she wanted to get it out in the open.
It was not surprise. I had known her for years and long suspected. He had always denied anything, but it was a relief to finally know that I was not crazy.
It has tainted me. My trust has been blown. I have had to piece things slowly together.
I am increasingly lucky with how well my kids have turned out. My daughter and my son are such wonderful people. My son is particularly empathic and caring. I hope he will make a wonderful partner for someone someday. My daughter can be full of charm and working through her own demons as do we all. She will be a wonderful person when she realizes how much she has to offer.
Now days I am mostly Buddhist in my thinking and philosophy. I only wish I were better at letting go of my own demons that my marriage left me with. I hope to forgive and release. But that will be the day he decides he needs something from me again. Ever vigilant.
It was not surprise. I had known her for years and long suspected. He had always denied anything, but it was a relief to finally know that I was not crazy.
It has tainted me. My trust has been blown. I have had to piece things slowly together.
I am increasingly lucky with how well my kids have turned out. My daughter and my son are such wonderful people. My son is particularly empathic and caring. I hope he will make a wonderful partner for someone someday. My daughter can be full of charm and working through her own demons as do we all. She will be a wonderful person when she realizes how much she has to offer.
Now days I am mostly Buddhist in my thinking and philosophy. I only wish I were better at letting go of my own demons that my marriage left me with. I hope to forgive and release. But that will be the day he decides he needs something from me again. Ever vigilant.
Insomnia
Insomnia
So long I sleep the sleep
The pain it ebbs and flows
Sometimes I feel still awake
Sometimes I never know.
I dream the dream of patients
I see them one by one
The pain sometimes so searing hot
Nothing can be done.
It is such a better thing
To sleep and run away.
Ah the dreams they are so sweet
I long for better days.
So long I sleep the sleep
The pain it ebbs and flows
Sometimes I feel still awake
Sometimes I never know.
So long I sleep the sleep
The pain it ebbs and flows
Sometimes I feel still awake
Sometimes I never know.
I dream the dream of patients
I see them one by one
The pain sometimes so searing hot
Nothing can be done.
It is such a better thing
To sleep and run away.
Ah the dreams they are so sweet
I long for better days.
So long I sleep the sleep
The pain it ebbs and flows
Sometimes I feel still awake
Sometimes I never know.
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